Wednesday, February 9, 2022

Ghost - Call Me Little Sunshine - Single [Review]

Fans of Swedish metal band Ghost can finally rejoice at the news of a new album, as IMPERA will be hitting music stores on March 11, 2022 - only a little more than a month away! Although I only just discovered and became a fan of the band in the spring of 2020 after hearing and instantly falling in love with "Mary on a Cross" and therefore haven't experienced the painful wait since 2018's Prequelle that a lot of other fans have experienced, it still feels like it has been a really long time, especially since, thanks to the COVID-19 pandemic, it seems like this album has seen delay after delay. Last fall, fans saw a shimmer of hope when the band released a brand new song to promote the horror film Halloween Kills. Titled "Hunter's Moon" (reviewed here), the general consensus seemed to be that as exciting as that was, it wasn't likely the lead single from the upcoming fifth studio album because it was more than likely just a standalone single to promote the movie. However, as you'll see from the tracklisting provided below, that hasn't turned out to be true as IMPERA will indeed feature "Hunter's Moon" as its fifth track. We finally got some more substantial news about the album, however, when, on January 20, 2022, Ghost dropped another new single as well as announcements regarding the album, including the title, the cover art, the tracklisting, and the release date. The single is titled "Call Me Little Sunshine," and I instantly fell in love with it.

Frontman Tobias Forge (or I guess, as Ghost fans will understand, Papa Emeritus IV) enunciates vowels in such a way on this track that reminds me a great deal of Metallica, and the song is Metallica-esque not only for that reason but also because of its lumbering, heavy guitar riff a bit reminiscent of past Ghost tracks like "Cirice" and "Majesty." I love its guitar riff so much in fact that I think that it steals the spotlight away from Tobias (although I love how Forge sort of deeply whispers the "call me" part of the title at the very beginning of the chorus). Loudwire also called attention to the riff in its review of the song: "[It] counters the bombast of 'Hunter's Moon' with a reliable mid-paced hook riff that opens the track and carries forward..." It has been stated that IMPERA will overall address the unavoidable fall of empires, but it also seems to be heavily influenced by iconic occultist Aleister Crowley. The IMPERA album cover (featured above since there doesn't seem to be an official single cover for "Call Me Little Sunshine") is a direct homage to a photograph of Crowley, and the "Call Me Little Sunshine" song title is also a reference to a Crowley quote; when asked why he was so fascinated with the mark of the beast, Crowley replied, "[It] only means sunlight. You can call me Little Sunshine." Like "Cirice," I see the song as being about empathy and reaching out to people in pain, people who (like Lucifer) are outcasts and feel alone: "You will never walk alone. You can always reach me. You will never ever walk alone." It's a beautiful song, and I cannot wait to hear what IMPERA as a whole has to offer!

MARINA - Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land (Deluxe Edition) [Review]

Last year,  Welsh/Greek alternative pop musician Marina Diamandis (who goes by merely her first name in all caps) released her fifth studio album Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land, a condensed album compared to her fourth album LOVE + FEAR (as it showcases only ten tracks compared to LOVE + FEAR's sixteen tracks) which I think worked to its benefit. Many fans were left disappointed, however, that previously teased songs such as "Happy Loner" and "Pink Convertible" did not make the cut, but MARINA did promise that we would at least hear "Pink Convertible" eventually. (A fan asked her on Instagram why "Pink Convertible" was not included on the album, and she said, "She's safe in a garage don't worry.") As much as I absolutely adore MARINA, however, I tried not to get my hopes up because she has said things in the past that didn't end up coming to fruition. (She once teased a FROOT repackage which would include a batch of new songs and then changed her mind about that, and she has also promised more than once that she would release the FROOT outtake "I'm Not Hungry Anymore" but still hasn't done so.) She then eventually said that a deluxe version of ADIAML would end up seeing a release, but I, again, accepted the possibility that she would end up changing her mind, but she fortunately did not, and the deluxe edition ended up seeing a January 7, 2022 release after "Happy Loner" was released as a single in late 2021. The first ten tracks on the deluxe edition are the exact same ten tracks on the standard edition of the album, and seeing as how I already reviewed the standard edition of the album, I will focus this review primarily on the five extra tracks that the deluxe edition offers.

I should start by saying that if, like me, you are a collector and enjoy collecting physical copies of albums, this deluxe edition of the album has not seen a physical release, only a digital one. It has yet to be seen whether or not there will be a physical release, but in this day and age when digital music seems to be most people's go-to, I honestly doubt it. (I did use Play Anywhere to create my own CD, however, especially since I enjoy listening to CDs in my car.) The first new track featured on the deluxe edition is "Happy Loner," a soft piano ballad in a similar vein as past songs such as "Numb," "Happy," and "Handmade Heaven." This one honestly took some time to grow on me. I like it a lot more than I did when I first heard it, although it's still honestly one of my lesser favorites from the album as a whole. I love how her vocals are a bit echoed and layered throughout the track, creating an atmospheric and ethereal effect. I especially love the chorus, especially when her vocals soar on the line "I'm sick of it all; I wanna give it up..." Somewhat similar to how she did on the FROOT track "Solitaire," MARINA addresses her appreciation for solitude, and the weird thing about this song is that I both vehemently relate to it and don't relate to it at all. In the bridge, for example, she sings that "I pick up on everybody's energy, always used to feel like there was something wrong with me." As an empath, I 100% understand and relate to that, but I handle my pain very differently than the speaker of this song seems to. I usually can't disconnect or else it gets worse. Even though I know that I run the risk of feeling like I am being a burden and am dragging others down, I usually feel incredibly hungry for companionship and comfort. The speaker of "Happy Loner" seems to feel the opposite, however: "When I'm alone, things are under control," she explains in the opening verse. "When I'm alone, I can turn off the world."

We then get the legendary "Pink Convertible," legendary because of how long it has been a part of fans' collective consciousness. Regarding the album as a whole, this song is definitely a huge standout for me. I absolutely loved the instrumental when that leaked (which I listened to for two reasons - (1) it was just an instrumental, and (2) I wasn't sure whether or not we were ever going to get a proper release, since, like I said, we still haven't of "I'm Not Hungry Anymore"), as it had this fantastical, otherworldly quality that reminded me a great deal of Diamandis' 2012 album Electra Heart. I still very much feel like the song has Electra Heart vibes, reminding me especially of tracks like "The State of Dreaming" and "Teen Idle." In fact, further clarifying why the track was cut from the initial release of ADIAML, MARINA wrote, "It was just very hard to narrow it down to 10 tracks + this one had a slightly different sonic edge to the other tracks," and as much as I adore "Pink Convertible," I agree that it has a different vibe than the album overall does. MARINA described the song (in a since deleted tweet) as "very Rodeo Drive Melting Handbags Apocalypse meets Let's Pretend It's All Fine," and if that's not the best description of a song ever, then such a thing doesn't exist. I love how there is definitely (as is typical of a lot of her music) a cynical storytelling approach taken to the song, as it is about people living in a blissful bubble in which they can ignore what is happening in and to the world around them: "I just wanna forget how fucked up is our planet." Despite that, however, its light guitar, keyboard, and harp create a dreamy, whimsical quality. I love that dichotomy, and although, like I said, it is sonically pretty different from a lot of what's on the album, it definitely fits thematically, as it is very thematically similar to songs like "Purge the Poison" and "New America."

"Free Woman" is the final new song that the deluxe offers, and it's my least favorite of the three, possibly even my least favorite on the album overall. Don't get me wrong; I by no means hate it, but it's just one of the weaker ones. It doesn't, for example, have the playfulness of "Purge the Poison," the depth or beauty of "Flowers," or the big soundscape of "New America." It's rather minimalist in its instrumentation and melody, although I do like how the instrumental seems to feature a bit of Western influence. Like "Pink Convertible," though, it definitely fits a lot of the album's themes, working as a sister song to feminist tracks such as "Venus Fly Trap" and "Man's World." On "Free Woman," Diamandis addresses patriarchal problems such as women being ridiculed as they age, being reduced to their physical appearance and their bodies, and being abused. She argues that she has risen above and that it doesn't bother her like it used to: "...You can't extinguish me," she asserts, "'cause I'm a free woman." This is the one song of the three new ones that, as far as I know, fans were not aware of until recently. The deluxe edition of the album also includes a demo version of "Venus Fly Trap" as well as a demo version of the title track, and it's very cool that she has officially released a couple of very raw and unpolished demos because I don't think that most artists would do that. (The "ADIAML" demo is especially very raw, with MARINA's vocals being muffled and tinny.) Some fans have compared the "Venus Fly Trap" demo to old-school MySpace and pre-TFJ MARINA, and I definitely hear that. Although part of me wishes that the Beach Bunny mix of "I Love You but I Love Me More" had also been included since I love that version and even prefer it to the album version, I am just so happy that this got released, especially because of "Pink Convertible" being included. (I am seeing MARINA live a second time in a couple of weeks and can't wait; I will definitely be reporting on that!)

Monday, February 7, 2022

Evanescence - Evanescence + Halestorm - Live at DCU Center [Thursday, 1/20/22] [Review]

Anyone who knows me likely knows how much I love alternative metal band Evanescence. I have been a huge fan ever since discovering them back in 2003 when I saw the "Bring Me to Life" music video (which recently hit a monumental milestone on YouTube!) on MTV (back when MTV actually lived up to its name and was related to music). I got to see them live in March of 2007 in Hartford, Connecticut when they went on tour to promote their 2006 album The Open Door, and I am so happy that I finally got the chance to see them a second time. (I made a promise to myself that I would once I finally got wheels, and I kept that promise.) This show was once again in a New England state, only this time in Worcester, MA (where I saw HIM on their farewell tour except that was at the Worcester Palladium). The venue was a pretty decent size, and I got there as early as I reasonably could without having to wait outside in the cold for too long (as it was freezing cold outside - pretty close to 0 degrees F if I remember correctly) because I wanted a good spot, and I did manage to get a very good spot; this might have even been the closest that I have ever been to the stage at a concert, and, of course, the fact that I paid a pretty penny to be in the pit didn't hurt. Shortly after I got to my spot in the pit, the opening act came on stage - Lilith Czar. I quickly realized that I had seen her album cover (her album title being Created from Filth and Dust) before and had also heard a couple of the songs that she performed such as "King" and "Anarchy." She was pretty good and had great energy, and I loved how she credited Evanescence and Halestorm (I think prior to "King" which would make sense because it's kind of a feminist anthem) as having helped to smash the glass ceiling for women in rock and metal. Lilith's set was a relatively short one consisting of six songs plus the "Intro Poem" introduction, but shorter sets are typical for opening acts. Some shows (as stated above on the tour poster) featured Plush as the opening act instead, and while I am not all too familiar with them either, I did recently hear one song titled "Hate" which I really liked.

It was not a long wait after Lilith wrapped up with "Anarchy" that Halestorm came on, and while I will say that there is only a small handful of Halestorm songs that I like, they definitely did put on a good show. I love frontwoman Lzzy Hale's wild and chaotic energy, and highlights of their set included "Love Bites (So Do I)," "I Miss the Misery" (which they closed with), and, of course, "Break In." "Break In" was my favorite part of Halestorm's set not only because I love the song - a beautiful and haunting piano ballad in which the speaker is thanking someone for being their rock - but also because Evanescence frontwoman Amy Lee came out and joined Lzzy on vocals, which I totally expected would likely happen given that the two have not only done so countless times in the past but also because Halestorm re-recorded the song in the studio with her. (You can watch my video recording of the performance here.) I really liked how they encouraged audience participation when they did "I Miss the Misery," which was one of the main reasons why, as I said, it was one of their set's highlights. I also enjoyed Arejay Hale (Lzzy's brother)'s drum solo which was very impressive (and he was very easy on the eyes too). I overall enjoyed their set, and, as I said, they did put on a good show. With that being said, however, I, as I said, only like a handful of Halestorm's songs. I saw someone say in an Evanescence fan group on Facebook that while they don't hate Halestorm, they didn't love their set when they saw them with Evanescence because Lzzy Hale is a rock star through and through and doesn't have the range or as many facets as Amy Lee does, and I completely agree. (The idea here, of course, is not to pit these two women against each other in any way whatsoever; they're very close friends which is awesome. All that I am saying is that I vastly prefer Evanescence as a band and that I prefer Amy's vocals and style.) I was surprised, however, that Halestorm's set wasn't longer; with Halestorm and Evanescence co-headlining, I expected their sets to be about the same length, but Evanescence's was about twice as long.

After Halestorm finished their set, I heard a lot of people around me complaining that Evanescence was taking a ridiculously long time to come on, but I didn't think so. I totally understand being anxious for who you're ultimately there for to come on (especially since it was a Thursday night which meant that a lot of people had to work the following morning), but it was approximately a half-hour wait which wasn't all that long. I have been to shows at which I waited much longer than that. Anyway, when I first heard The Bitter Truth when it came out last March and listened to the transition between "Artifact / The Turn" and "Broken Pieces Shine," I just knew that that was also how shows would open when they toured for the album, and I was correct. (You can hear both songs together in one track here.) I envisioned it as such: the stage would stay mostly shrouded in darkness with only a little bit of lighting and colors as "Artifact / The Turn" played, the band not yet on stage, and only when "Broken Pieces Shine" started and that incredibly sick guitar riff came would the stage light up fully, revealing the band members and eventually Amy once she started singing the first verse, and I couldn't have been any more on the money. (Amy was at first centered and elevated in the background in shadow before making her full entrance which was very cool.) I just knew that the quiet atmospheric nature of "Artifact / The Turn" while fans anticipated the band to come on stage and then that guitar riff coming in to cut through that and actually get the show started would be a kicka** way to start the show. (Plus, Amy has said before that "Broken Pieces Shine" was essentially written as an anthem for us the fans, so it only made sense to open with it.) That countdown and opening riff at the beginning of "Broken Pieces Shine" was honestly what I was most excited for, and I was not disappointed. Before I continue discussion of the show and some of its highlights, however, I will reveal the set list. There were definitely aspects of the set list that took me by surprise while there were also a couple of aspects that disappointed me, but I will get into all of that shortly.

  1. Artifact / The Turn / Broken Pieces Shine
  2. Made of Stone
  3. Take Cover
  4. Going Under
  5. Lose Control
  6. The Change
  7. Lithium
  8. Wasted on You
  9. The End of the Dream
  10. Far from Heaven
  11. Better Without You
  12. Call Me When You're Sober
  13. Imaginary
  14. Heavy (with Lzzy Hale)
  15. Use My Voice
  16. Bring Me to Life
  17. My Immortal
  18. Blind Belief

Starting with the highlights, "Take Cover," as one would likely expect being familiar with the song, was packed with fierce and raw energy, and it seems to be a favorite of theirs to play live since they actually debuted it live several years ago long before The Bitter Truth was even conceived. There is a part of the song in The Bitter Truth version (that is not in the version that they used to do live) in which Amy sings, "...so come on inside; rest in peace!" When she sings inside, she holds the second i for several seconds in a high pitched wail, one of Amy's most impressive vocal displays thus far in her career in my opinion, and she nailed it perfectly on stage. "Going Under" was also a highlight because it's a song featuring a different vocal style than Lee usually implements, a much lower register in its verses, so it was really cool to see/hear her do that again. The transition from "Lithium" to "Wasted on You" (The Bitter Truth's lead single released a good year or so before the album was) was kind of a cool moment because while I don't know if it was intentional, it made for a pretty cool thematic parallel. In "Lithium," Lee is of course referring to the drug which acts as a mood stabilizer, usually for people who are manic-depressive. "Wasted on You" is also a metaphorical reference to drugs, with Lee telling the addressee of the song that she is wasted on them like she would be a drug. (The first line of the chorus is even "I don't need drugs.") What makes this even more interesting, however, is that on the final night of the tour (which was the night after the show that I went to) in Newark, NJ, the band followed up on "Wasted on You" with "Part of Me" which also makes a metaphorical drug reference ("I need you now like the drug keeping me alive"). Other highlights included "The End of the Dream" (especially since they combined the Synthesis version and the Evanescence version, which was a very pleasant surprise), "Heavy" (a Linkin Park cover - possibly to commemorate Chester Bennington's passing - which involved bringing Lzzy back on stage), "Use My Voice" (mainly because of how Amy involved the audience for the chanting part of the chorus), and "Bring Me to Life" (which was a highlight for me because Amy did Paul McCoy's rapping part - "All this time, I can't believe I couldn't see..." - another pleasant surprise).

One aspect of this show that made it unique for me is how, with it starting with "Artifact / The Turn / Broken Pieces Shine" and then ending with "Blind Belief," it opened and closed the same way as the album that it was promoting. That usually is not the case. When I saw Madonna in 2015, for example, she opened with "Iconic" and closed with "Holiday," even though Rebel Heart opens with "Living for Love" and closes with either "Wash All Over Me" or the title track, depending on the edition. I was also very surprised by the fact that a good number of the older songs that were played, such as "Made of Stone," "Lose Control," "The Change," "The End of the Dream," and "Imaginary," were not singles. Typically, when an artist goes on tour to promote a new album, most of the songs are from the new album (which was not the case - only seven of the set's eighteen songs are from the new album which isn't even half) while the older songs played are former singles, but singles such as "Everybody's Fool," "Sweet Sacrifice," "What You Want," "My Heart Is Broken," etc. were nowhere to be heard. This isn't really a complaint, especially since, if anything, it goes to show that they probably like to mix their set lists up and play what they want to play rather than keep playing the same songs over and over again; it's just a point of surprise for me. The fact that there were several songs from The Bitter Truth not played was a disappointment, however, mainly because I didn't get to hear my favorite song from the new album, the aforementioned "Part of Me." This was definitely a surprise because I remember Amy saying in an interview that (a) the line in the song "drown me in your blinding light" was written specifically about performing live for fans and (b) it was the song from the album that she was most looking forward to playing; however, only certain dates on the tour featured "Part of Me," and mine unfortunately was not one of them. Not even "The Game Is Over" was played, and that is one of the singles from the new album!

I personally would have scrapped older songs such as "The Change" (especially "The Change" because that has always been one of my lesser favorites on the self-titled album) in favor of some more content from The Bitter Truth. Four songs from The Bitter Truth - "The Game Is Over," "Yeah Right" (technically another single albeit a promo single), "Feeding the Dark" (a fan favorite and one of the heaviest tracks - if not the heaviest track - on the album, so that was another surprise), and "Part of Me" were not played, with, as I said, "Part of Me" being the exclusion that disappointed me the most. I also would have loved to have heard them play band versions of "Imperfection" and/or "Hi-Lo," since, with them being the two new songs released as singles from Synthesis, a pretty recent album, it would have made sense to play at least one. With all of that being said, however, I have far more to rave about than I do to complain about and am so, so grateful that I took advantage of the opportunity to see my favorite band a second time, especially since it had been fifteen years since the first time which was far too long. They didn't lose a bit of energy and are still very much in their prime, and the stage was so colorful with really cool graphics and metaphorical images showing on a screen at its rear. Even though I totally expected this because she has been doing it for several years and did it all through the Synthesis tour, a touching moment was definitely when, right before beginning to play "My Immortal," Amy dedicated the song to us and thanked us for being there for her for as long as we have. I also got emotional during the video interlude in between "Far from Heaven" and "Better Without You." A beautiful piano piece (which is apparently appropriately titled "Time Travel" and is from the Donnie Darko score) played during a video that showcased some of the band's memorable moments over the years, and I especially got emotional when a fan was shown at a concert in the past absolutely bawling his eyes out as he sang along to a song. I knew exactly how he felt in that moment because no artist has hit me emotionally like this band has for nearly two decades now, and Evanescence is part of me, now and always.

Friday, February 4, 2022

Lana Del Rey - Blue Banisters [Review]

2021 was a very big year for American singer-songwriter Lana Del Rey, as she released not one but two full-length albums - Chemtrails over the Country Club in March and then Blue Banisters in October. While I am a huge fan of Lana Del Rey and do feel that both albums offer up some gems, I would overall say that they are examples of quality being superior to quantity, as I do think that 2021 makes for the weakest era of Lana's career thus far. Not only do I feel that the music is weaker, I also feel like the buzz around the albums was nowhere near as loud as it was when it came to past albums, especially not Blue Banisters. (After all, Chemtrails over the Country Club had barely been promoted before she started talking about and advertising Blue Banisters.) I might also feel this way, however, because of how much I absolutely adored 2019's Norman Fucking Rockwell! - Del Rey's best album to date with only Ultraviolence competing for that spot. NFR! is a masterpiece that is going to be hard to top as it is, so releasing two albums practically back to back that are, in my opinion, subpar makes it stand out even more. Part of my problem with Blue Banisters is that most of it isn't technically new material, and while I am glad that some of Lana's unreleased material is being remastered and is seeing the proper light of day (and while I also completely sympathize with her frustration around her material being leaked), it makes the album feel more like a compilation than an album. (I will, as I progress through this review, point to which songs are confirmed leftovers from past eras.) It also helps explain how Lana was able to release so much music in such a small window of time (although, with that being said, she has so much unreleased material that it's clear that she has no shortage of inspiration or creativity and I have no doubt that she actually could muster two brand new albums together in less than a year). Without further ado, however, let's move on to actually discussing the album.

The first three tracks on the album are all tracks that I discussed already - "Text Book" (reviewed here), the title track (reviewed in that same post), and "Arcadia" (reviewed here). "Text Book," as I discussed in my review of it, has a beautiful chorus; however, I don't think that it works as an opening track, especially compared to past openers such as "Ride," "Cruel World," "Norman fucking Rockwell," and even "White Dress." "Arcadia" is by far my favorite of the first three tracks, but it is followed by a very strange track that does not sonically belong on the album at all. A short instrumental interlude, the fourth track is titled "Interlude - The Trio," and, in a review of the album, Stuff writer Alex Behan makes this argument regarding the track a lot more eloquently than I ever could even though I feel the exact same way: "Frustratingly, the booming trap beat that makes Interlude - The Trio such an exciting departure turns out to be a false flag. For just a minute, there's the hope Del Rey might be about to burst through her self-created glass ceiling of style, but it turns out to be a mere palette cleanser." While I don't entirely agree with their stance of her style being monotonous (I do think that she has taken risks on tracks such as "High by the Beach," "Summer Bummer," "Groupie Love," and "Cinnamon Girl"), I do definitely think that the past two albums have felt rather monotonous, and "Interlude - The Trio" offers hope that we might be getting some different flavors than the first three tracks offer, but, as Behan puts it, it's a false flag. "Black Bathing Suit" opens and closes with a beautiful keyboard melody that sounds like a lullaby, by far my favorite aspect of the song. It is overall, like most of Del Rey's material of the recent past, a slow-paced piano piece, although it also features gentle guitar and a soft drum beat. It does, however, take a somewhat interesting turn when the chorus slightly changes the pace and the key, almost even making the track sound like a mashup of two different songs. Like "Arcadia," the chorus of this track reminds me a bit of Born to Die's "Video Games," and although this track isn't necessarily a highlight for me on Blue Banisters, I do appreciate its lyrical content, which addresses both the COVID-19 pandemic and the public scrutiny under which Lana has recently fallen for her weight gain.

One of my favorite tracks on Blue Banisters is undoubtedly "If You Lie Down with Me." It is, however, one of many tracks originally intended for an earlier album, having been written during the Ultraviolence sessions. It is another piano ballad, but not only do I love the lulling melody, I adore the outro - a playful and jaunty melody played by a traditional band featuring trumpet and tuba that sounds straight out of a 1930s or 1940s tune. We then get "Beautiful" which is played on the higher end of the piano, keys trilling and fluttering underneath Lana's vocals. I really appreciate the lyrical message of this one, which, to me, is about how negative emotions such as sadness can be transformed into something beautiful such as art. Lana has repeatedly throughout her career referenced the color blue in her lyrics and song titles, such as in "Baby Blue Love," "Blue Jeans," her cover of "Blue Velvet," "Get Free" ("out of the black, into the blue"), "Norman fucking Rockwell" ("...your head in your hands as you color me blue"), this album's title track, etc. She now has an entire album with Blue in its title, and on "Beautiful," she once again references the color, here in both a literal and a metaphorical sense - literally referring to Picasso having frequently painted pictures with mostly blue hues and also referring to blue as a feeling of sadness. "Violets for Roses," another downtempo piano ballad, seems to be about Lana reflecting on a toxic relationship, thankful that she is now free from it. The song, for a couple of reasons, reminds me a great deal of her Violet Bent Backwards over the Grass poem "My Bedroom Is a Sacred Place - There Are Children at the Foot of My Bed," so much so in fact that I feel confident that both pieces were written about the same person. The first parallel is that both reference violets and roses; in this song, Lana sings in the chorus that "you made me trade my violets for roses," and in "My Bedroom Is a Sacred Place...," she writes in the fourth paragraph that "I love rose gardens. I plant violets every time someone leaves me." Secondly, in this song, she sings in the pre-chorus that "ever since I fell out of love with you, I fell back in love with me" which reminds me of a line from the aforementioned poem: "...The more I step into becoming a poet, the less I will fall into being with you."

My #1 favorite song on the album is probably "Dealer," featuring uncredited vocals from Miles Kane. (He takes up so much of the song that I am really not sure why he isn't credited, but I digress.) This song was originally intended to be on a scrapped collaboration album between Lana and The Shadow Puppets (of which Kane is the frontman), as was Norman Fucking Rockwell!'s "California." It was then supposed to be on Chemtrails but didn't make that cut either, and I'm glad that it did get recycled on Blue Banisters (even though a pretty high percentage of Blue Banisters' tracks are, as I said, recycled) because I love it so much, especially since if there is one song on Blue Banisters (aside, of course, from the early instrumental interlude) on which Lana does escape the album's mold and take a bit of a risk, it's "Dealer" (especially because of Lana's vocals which are louder and much more intense than they usually are). "Dealer" is a soft rock song with low bass guitar and keyboards, both of which are heavily washed out by Lana's and Miles Kane's vocals and the steady percussion. It seems to lyrically address depression ("I can't sleep through the tears") and feeling lost in it, like there is no possible way to cure or even relieve it. The speaker tells the addressee not to try to check in on their well-being by contacting people such as their drug dealer, their father, or their doctor because such people cannot possibly know their state of mind better than they themselves do. I also think that there is more than one way to interpret the word dealer. It could be a drug dealer dealing illicit drugs or it could be someone like a psychiatrist or even pharmacist supplying legal drugs like antidepressants. In Lana's entrance to the track (as it begins solely with Miles), she seems to be addressing a lover with whom she has had a toxic, one-sided relationship, so the dealer could even be someone "dealing" intimacy. We then get "Thunder," which is another song originally intended for the aforementioned album with The Shadow Puppets. A demo version of the song actually leaked a few years ago, and even though "Thunder" is still one of my favorite songs on Blue Banisters, I very much prefer the demo version, as it has a lot more energy and is a lot more anthemic. It's a bit stripped down here, possibly to fit the album's overall downbeat energy.

I discussed "Wildflower Wildfire" already here, and the next three tracks are all tracks confirmed to be from the Ultraviolence sessions. "Nectar of the Gods" is another one that leaked a few years ago, previously under the titles "Wild on You" and "Color Blue" (another reference to blue!). It was written, along with "If You Lie Down with Me," nearly a decade ago during the Ultraviolence sessions, and one of the reasons why I am kind of frustrated with its inclusion here is because it, along with the next two tracks, was not re-recorded and has undergone absolutely no changes (other than likely having been remastered) from its leaked demo version. Like I said, these inclusions make Blue Banisters feel more like a compilation album with a few new songs than a new album, and while, like I said, I completely understand Lana's anger and frustration around these songs having been leaked (which she addressed in a live video to fans), the reality of it is that they did leak and she knew that they leaked, so why not finally release that unreleased collection like she teased so long ago instead of releasing a bunch of previously leaked material under the pretense of it being a new album? It's just really frustrating to me as a fan because, like I said, it doesn't really feel like an album. Anyway, I digress. "Nectar of the Gods" is played primarily on acoustic guitar, and I really like the haunting chanting at the very beginning. I also love its references to Ultraviolence's opening track "Cruel World": "What cruel world is this?" and "I get wild and fuckin' crazy." I have always loved "Living Legend," ever since I heard it when it leaked. It is a piano ballad with a lulling, beautiful melody and lyrics in which Lana holds a hero in high esteem. (She has stated that it was written about her first mentor Jane Powers, hence the line about a "sweet baby Jane.") As previously stated, this is another song that was written and recorded for Ultraviolence (once again not being re-recorded or remixed for Blue Banisters) and consequently, like "Nectar of the Gods," bears another lyrical parallel to an Ultraviolence track, this time to the upbeat "Florida Kilos" when she sings in the bridge that "I got guns in the summertime."

"Cherry Blossom" is yet another song from the Ultraviolence sessions that didn't undergo any changes. Several years before it leaked, Lana previewed it by singing it live on Instagram, referring to it as "a lullaby I wrote years ago." Another piano ballad, it is a beautiful song from the perspective of a mother comforting her daughter, and it once again draws parallels to "Cruel World" when, in the bridge, she sings that "it's a cruel, cruel world, but we don't care." Blue Banisters then closes with... you guessed it, a piano ballad! According to Genius, "Sweet Carolina" is a love letter to her sister Chuck Grant. It is clear that the two are very close; Chuck is a photographer who has shot most of the album covers so far, and she also appears in a lot of the photos featured with the art of the physical copy of this album. She appears in some of Lana's music videos such as "Summertime (The Gershwin Version)" and "Blue Banisters," and "Blue Banisters" even name drops her in its lyrics: "Chucky's makin' birthday cake." Given that Chuck did recently have a child, that could be why there seems to be a recurrent theme of motherhood on the album (and could have impacted Del Rey's decision to include "Cherry Blossom"), such as in "Blue Banisters" when Lana declares that "there's a baby on the way." It's a nice enough song but isn't in my opinion musically dramatic enough to work as the closing. Although not on Blue Banisters since it was just recently released in early 2022, Lana did also release a new song titled "Watercolor Eyes" for the HBO TV series Euphoria. The song is believed to have been written specifically for Euphoria, although it does reference an as-of-yet to be released (or heard, since it hasn't leaked) track titled "Rock Candy Sweet" (which was also originally meant to be the Blue Banisters album title): "I think that you taste like rock candy, sweet like beaches..." It's a really beautiful song that reminds me so much of Ultraviolence with its softly strumming electric guitar resembling that album's slow surf rock sound as found on tracks like "Cruel World" and "Pretty When You Cry." Overall, Blue Banisters is a decent album but definitely not her strongest, and I just, as I said, wish that if she is going to release songs that fans have already heard, either advertise the album as a compilation of old recordings or re-record the songs like she did with "Thunder," but at the end of the day, it's her music, and the art is her vision.